Moments of Thoughts

Finally all my exams and presentation are all over.....
Shld be feeling estatic and happy.........
However, a sense of loss and emptiness feels my heart as time goes by..
The loss of a goal and suddenly all that i have placed all my time and effort in all this while is no longer there....
Wat overcomes the happiness is thoughts that has never been set in before in my mind...
Wat is relationship??
This is such a fragile and filmsy thing that will be broken after time....
Be it friendship or others....
How many times have i feel neglected over and over again...
Who are really my close frens??
I realise that things are always not what it seems...
Is it the insecurities that are working inside me that made me feel this way?? i'm not sure about that but this feeling is there but always ignored.
Time is needed for me to sort out what is going thru my mind
Over and over again, always felt that I am unimportant..
How many times i have to convince myself that i do not feel neglected?
Is it my problem or am i too sensitive about the whole issue?
I have been asking myself when the question pops up.
too many questions without an answer..
As time passes, its getting too tired to think about it.
And hence accepting it as it is.
Those i feel are my close frens may not seem as close as i feel.
Always have this feeling that it mayb my own point of view and not a mutual thing.
Too many thoughts that i cannot figure out... and flowing thru my mind..
Shall think it thru till i find my answers.