Moments of Thoughts

Finally all my exams and presentation are all over.....
Shld be feeling estatic and happy.........
However, a sense of loss and emptiness feels my heart as time goes by..
The loss of a goal and suddenly all that i have placed all my time and effort in all this while is no longer there....
Wat overcomes the happiness is thoughts that has never been set in before in my mind...
Wat is relationship??
This is such a fragile and filmsy thing that will be broken after time....
Be it friendship or others....
How many times have i feel neglected over and over again...
Who are really my close frens??
I realise that things are always not what it seems...
Is it the insecurities that are working inside me that made me feel this way?? i'm not sure about that but this feeling is there but always ignored.
Time is needed for me to sort out what is going thru my mind
Over and over again, always felt that I am unimportant..
How many times i have to convince myself that i do not feel neglected?
Is it my problem or am i too sensitive about the whole issue?
I have been asking myself when the question pops up.
too many questions without an answer..
As time passes, its getting too tired to think about it.
And hence accepting it as it is.
Those i feel are my close frens may not seem as close as i feel.
Always have this feeling that it mayb my own point of view and not a mutual thing.
Too many thoughts that i cannot figure out... and flowing thru my mind..
Shall think it thru till i find my answers.

Finally!

After one month of writing and two weeks of agonising over the changes.......
Its finally over today!!!
Submitted my Final report to my Prof at 11.55 am......
Gonna remember the time when i hand it up and he said "its ok no problem."
I was literally gonna jump in joy....
Weeks and weeks of looking at the same thing over and over non stop is truly a painful experience....
Could not contain my happiness last thursday when my prof said "just the few minor changes and u can hand it up to me the final report."
Needed to share the happiness with people....haha
But i guess not many can understand the feeling and how estatic i was...
Before that it was just rejection and rejections of the work i've done....
Pinpointing on every thing and that it was full of mistakes..
continue on until it was like 2 days before my first paper for exams that i din even have the time and mood to study for that subject!
Thank god i was able to hang on and went thru this difficult time....
All is over i hope and now left to deal with my exams and presentation....
Pray that i will be able to focus and concentrate on studying for my exams and also my presentation will go smoothly without any mishaps....


:)

Pls Slow Down...!!!!!

As the title of my blog shows.....
Pls slow down....
Dun u find that time is really flying fast pass us?
Its near the end of the year already...
One more month and my exams are ending...
hey come one, i haven even finish my projects and start studying n exams are like next week...
Arghh.......
Deadlines and deadlines..
near the end of the year and i'm not done with my applications...
Mayb its my fault for procrastinating so long...
but still.... this year is really flying past way too fast compared to other years..
y is this so?
can someone answer me????

Running OUT of Time

It's boring boring.......
Even with the five minutes blogging is so important to me...
sigh... i realli need more hours..
TOO many things to be done...
all deadlines are like speeding towards me...

Dun talk about it...
let's talk about more happy stuff...haha
Sorry to janice and mui hwee..
i'm too busy to attend all ur b'day parties...
BUt HAPPY B'DAY to you!!!!!
Hope u guys have a fun time.

okie back to studies now...
be back soon to update..
back to the boring work...

Updates...time time time

It is been a long time since i've been blogging.
So let me jus update what is going on in my life.
haha... i have been busy with my final year project (fyp) ,
been in school till late to rush out for what ever i need.
feel so tired after so many days of midnight oil. i should be writing my report now,
but its jus that i am so tired and sick of looking at my report for the past few days non stop.
And i feel so dumb as i dunno where i misplace the most important thing.
Wth, dunno where my thumbdrive is being placed. Its like the most important thing to me now.
Searched high and low but to no avail.

Have three on going projects and i think i am going mad. but hopefully by next week everything will be done.

Enough about school and serious stuff.
Miss service for the past two weeks cause not feeling well and quizes.
On tuesday, suddenly has to urge to go for service and also misses it.
mayb it becos i miss service consecutively for two weeks.
suppose to go out for dinner for win's b'day celebration but becos of sch work it has been postponed back weeks after week.
Sorry win, we should be able to go for the dinner soon.

Oh ya jus took my SAT last sat and was surprised to see rina and weixuan there.
Cos they were the invigilators for the test.
Think i not going to do well for this SAT.
may need to retake it....sigh

Miss my gals nite out with jo, jiahui, ja, rina n weixuan.
its beeen such a long time since all of us went out together.
hmmm....mayb i need some break and also make time and effort to ask them out.
so may things to do but so little time.
time flies so quickly that its like only one month from exams but there is still many things and subjects that i haven study...
i now really wish i have 48 hrs a day or i have supernatural power that i can have much energy even if i dun sleep. *in process of wishful thinking*

Ok, gotta go back to my dull report if not i really am going to become a zombie soon for not having enough sleep for many days...

Tata
hopefully i will find time to come back to blog soon.

ExAmInations

Since the last post, its been sometime i've updated.....
Time realli flies.. its like almost a month and as the title says..Examinations on the way....
Been doing alot of thinking besides studyin recently..
haha .... althought the priority shd be studying..with like less than 2 weeks to go...
Sigh..i have like tonnes of work to finish catching up...


recently i just realise something...
i feel that i may have to change my way of communication...
ppl are saying that i shd think before i speak...
Is this the case..?
I've been thinking about it...
reflecting back..
i may have been rather insensitive to other people's feelings..
i dunno..argh..can anyone tell me...?
mayb its time i shd learn how to read other ppl's expression ..
and be more sensitive to their tone...
guess its something i really shd learn and learn it fast!!


Anyway back to examinations....,
its time i shd pull up my socks...
and pull it really high....
I'm so sorry to those people i haven keep in touch with...
I apologize k.... We shall meet up after our exams....
Good luck to all those whose exams are coming up...
Gambatte!!!!

Bored.....

Since the last time of blogging......

its been like few weeks.....

nothing really any interesting happen to me......

After the last chill out with my frens...

its like me being cooped at home for the past few weeks except mayb for church stuff........feel like i'm getting used to staying at home....

i've always thought reading someone else's blog is jus reading......

but it seems like i'm getting easier and easier affected by people.............

jus by reading a post got me all emotional....thoughts jus came to my mind...

but its alright..manage to get it over..think it was jus for a moment....

So let me jus add some photos of the last outing......

jo & I Jiahui & I

Weixuan & I Ja & I

Rina & I

Don't all these gals look good!!!!

haha...of cos i'm not talking about myself.....

anyway i couldn't find a group photo so all the individual one's are added into it.

Hope u guys enjoy lookin at them...woohoo.....

Ciao

Mel

Post Birthday Celebration

Just came back from Wala Wala.
Met up with my frens from hall.
They celebrated my birthday in Wala Wala and dedicated a birthday song through the band.
Its the first time that someone has celebrated my birthday in this manner!!!
Its so different from the rest of the birthdays that i have celebrated.
Thanx alot to u guys!! muackz muackz.....
Oh and wat a coincidence to meet someone i noe there!!
Anyway it was fun and i've really got a enjoyable break amongst my busy schedule with quizes coming up.
Thanx for asking me out!!

P.S: Dun worry ja... i wont forget to leave the drummer to u.

A Bientot Bises

FiRst Time

Yeah!!!!
After so long manage to re-open my blog!!
Think its time to start update about my life to the people i noe.
Let them haf updates of wat is happening to me esp since everyone is so busy to meet up.
Thats all i'm gonna to write for now.
Ciao